My Dearest Second Child,
Hyachti, you have not yet entered this world, but I want you to know that I fully love you and, as your parents, we will do our very best for you. It is true, no matter how many children a parent has, you love them all equally. Yes, I may have experienced pregnancy and childbirth already with your older brother, but I am just as excited to build those memories with you as your story continues to develop.
Over the past few months, my heart has become somewhat broken. I’ve looked around and asked questions, trying to figure out if these feelings are “normal.” I have heard different responses and none of them have eased the discomfort I feel. I even found a few articles online (such as this one) that shared similar feelings to that which I have been asking others about. You see, my heart has been aching for you (Crazy how that happens for a Mama even before the child is born.) We are over half way to your expected arrival and I’ve noticed so many differences in how the world had responded to your coming. I am not sure if it is because I was already pregnant before, or if it is because not much time has passed since your brother’s birth, but regardless, the differences make me sad. To date, we have received one congratulations card in the mail; that makes just one card in your memory book. Meanwhile, your brother’s is overflowing with cards. By this time, people had bought little cute gifts and would often check to see how the pregnancy was going. We were in the planning stages of baby showers and celebrations as the anticipation for baby’s arrival grew. Yet, you my second child, have not had any of these things. I am not saying that you need gifts, nor that we need to be blessed with a baby shower. Another factor might be that with our first pregnancy, there was one only other person I knew who was due around the same time. Childbirth was like a holiday for just one child. Now this time around, I am pretty sure that half of the country is having a baby the same time you are due, including more than one set of twins. It seems like there will be babies around every corner! I just feel bad because it feels like people are not as excited for you to arrive as we, your parents, feel. I sense that I need to brace myself for the fact that things are going to be very different this time around. But I want you to always know that we pray for you every day and smile about your growth throughout the weeks.
No matter what surrounds your delivery into this world, your Baba and I love you beyond imagination. We fully support you and will do all we can to help you throughout life. Just as when we were expecting your brother, I caress the area where you are developing, feeling so connected even though I have yet to hold you in my arms. As you’ve developed throughout the past 22 weeks, your Baba has continued to pray over you and to talk with you just as he did with your brother. We might have less pictures, but our love is indescribable. Life may be busier this time around, but we are still making time for you. I know you will be different – perhaps you will have a different sleep pattern, or maybe feedings will go differently, but always know that I love you just the same. You are my child and I will always think the world of you! My heart will always be yours.
All that being said, know that you are loved beyond measure. Society will change, people will come and go, but our love for you will always be solid. Don’t compare yourself to anyone else because you are unique and special, just as God planned for you to be. We cannot wait to meet you and watch you discover the joys in this world. I have yet to hold your hand, but know that I will be right by your side, your biggest cheerleader, for all of your life!
Forever loving you,
Ahmeli… that no matter what happens around us, we continue to show each child how very special and loved they are!
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